2014 Recap & 2015 Resolution

First of all I would like to say, HAPPY NEW YEAR! Phew, glad today I am not working because boss give cuti lah. Haha. *Deep breath* knowing that its another new year and I just turned 24 years old a few weeks ago. I am in the middle 20's. Very akak akak liddat. LOL. Which I am very excited at the same time overwhelm by everything I want to do this year. 2014 has been a bless and it is the year that I had the most,

SURREAL

DISAPPOINTING

TEARS

&

LESSON LEARN MOMENTS

Seriously serious. If every year were a chapter. I will name this chapter. A Lesson Learn chapter. This post would not be like previous year post with lost of picture and stuff. As you know I never really talk about my personal life. I don't usually rant in my blog but sometimes in my personal Facebook. Haha. and also Twitter. Why? I don't know. Maybe the only positive social media I ever had is my blog. Well, not 100% positive when some people love to leave hateful comments which I already deleted even before publishing it. But to say the truth, my blogging world means so much to me and I would call it my Happy Place. I don't usually rant, tell negative things and just happy being me. Which is good. The biggest moment that I have been waiting in 2014 is my graduation day which happen in September. Alhamdulilah, in 2014 I graduated with a Degree and I am officially not a student. *Punch fist in the air* I don't hate study but I just a person who have so many thing to do and my studies have really block my plans. Haha. In early 2014 I walk into a whole new experience in my studies. Which bring back my memory when I am doing my I********p. A memory that I would only cherish to the knowledge that I get but not how I was treated. Things were nice at first but it gets weird after that. My I********p is one of the experience that really hits my head. There is where I had my "Lesson Learned" moments. I was so stressed and emotional. Feel left out and not able to fit in just because I don't come from a well known family and go to w**k by motorcycle. Being place on the corner and felt invisible to everyone. Because before I came in, I thought everyone were nice but actually there is another agenda. But let just say that, I glad it happen. Why? Because what does it kills makes it stronger right? I smiled when I walk out on my last day, the experience and thoughtful moments really makes me a stronger person in 2014 and what is the lesson learned? Don't trust anyone. Along with that I also lost a few friends this year. From friend to foe without any logic reason. I don't have time to get into all these drama. All I know is I have so many things to settle and move on. I can't tolerate with people dragging me backwards for some stupid things.

My early 2014 also hits me when Mr. T grandma & granpa passed away. Although I am not married to him yet, his family are like mine. It was an intense situation where me and him had to find money to go back and forward from Kuala Lumpur to Johor. 2014 is one of the year where I visit hospital and graveyard the most. One by one and it keeps coming. I was so so so weak and hopeless around the time. Being a person who does not like to get sympathy from people makes me depressed because I mostly kept everything to my self and glad Mr T was with me and a shoulder to cry on.

Super dramatic right?

You can call me a drama queen if you want but what I told you is only 5% of the whole story.And it is only the 4th month of 2014. After that I decided to move back to my parent house because I can't stand the cost of living in Kuala Lumpur. So I moved. That is why you can't really see a lot of post on events and such. Going back to my parents house definitely the best decision made as well as the most opportunity cost decision I every made. The pros, I get to live in my own bedroom, be around with my cats & family, living in Johor is more relaxed compare to Kuala Lumpur. Haha. Cons. Frankly speaking. I lost a lot of blog opportunities. Sometimes I felt like I was not in use anymore because I'm just far away. So I might be a trouble to some people. Feel left out? Yes definitely. I even get so emotional when I commenting on their photos but my comment were never replied. Childish much? Sadly yes. I think it is because I feel very alone. But I already use to that now. 

The story continues. Alhamdulilah. After just 1 month. I got a job. So far? Everything is awesome and I am very grateful for that. Lesson Learn No 2. Sometimes when you less expected, things might surprise you. I work in the same field of business as previous and I did not expect anything because I scared I will feel disappointed again. So far so good and all I can say that I was treated differently than before. Things gets better and better. Each day I am a stronger person. Is there more Sabrina? Yes but I think just until here. Let's continue to the great stuff that happen. Also I learn to manage my own blog. Although there is someone promise me that they will help but no. Lesson learn again. Don't always believe people when they said they wanted to help. I learn to be independent too. Since I got a job, my income has become better. I realize that when we have money. We can help more people. Yes, money is not everything but everything needs money. My blog also is one of the source of my monthly income which I super grateful. I can never thank you enough to all company that trust me. Also I know that all this success does not come from me alone. To all the people that discover me& my blog, recommend & suggest me to these companies to all these opportunities and give me all these opportunity. I don't know who you are but. THANK YOU SO MUCH. 

Let's check my 2014 resolution. Did I manage to complete it?

2014 RESOLUTION

START A YOUTUBE CHANNEL

GET MY DRIVING LICENSE

GRADUATE MY DEGREE

PURCHASE A GOOD CAMERA

REACH 1 MILLION VIEWS IN MY BLOG

LAUNCH #THEPROJECTB

HAVE THE PERFECT MAKEUP STORAGE

HAVE A DESKTOP COMPUTER

GET BACK TO 48KG

BE HAPPY

So 7/10. *Pat on my back* Alhamdulilah. I have stated my YouTube channel although I started it in December, will do more video soon. Get my driving license? One of another stressful moments! Haha! Glad I make it. Graduate my degree! Yay me! Purchase a good camera with my own hard earn money. *Fist Punch in the air*. Reach 1,000,000 views in my blog! One of the best moment. Thank you to you guys who make this happen. Have the perfect makeup storage. Yes, I already have my perfect drawers and it is just purrfect! So the other 3? Will bring it forward to this year and make it crossed! In shaa Allah!

Along with that there has been surreal moments that happen in my life. One of it is to be appear in not only one but TWO magazine! I still remember back in school, I were laugh by people when they heard I wanted to be in a magazine. Laugh at. Yes. I don't want fame but to be able to show what I have succeed is one of my biggest dream. Thank you to Cosmopolitan Malaysia and also Hijab Magazine. Seriously thank you.

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2015 RESOLUTION

LAUNCH #THEPROJECTB

This is serious. I need to make it happen this year. I did not manage to make it last year because there were many obstacles in terms of capital and situation. I need. I need. I need to make it happen this year.

GET BACK TO 48KG

*Laugh* But yeah. I need to take care of what I am eating and also exercise more regularly. I got too much love. *Love handle* Wish me luck!

HAVE A DESKTOP COMPUTER

I need to get more serious in my blogging, videos, and stuff. A desktop computer will get me going.

ACHIEVE 2,000,000 HITS ON MY BLOG

Will be a great celebration! In shaa Allah this year! when I hit that number I will do a makeup collection tour maybe? I also will make sure to post at least 20-25 post per month. Will try my best!

BE A TITANIUM

To the lesson learn I got last year. This year I want to be a different person. I will try to speak less and be around Facebook less. There is too much negativity and things going on in Social Media which really drags me down. I want to be a person who does not care to what people say about me, and just do my thing. I don't care. Don't like me? Felt uneasy? trying to preach me? Sense negativity? Block with no warning.

WAKE UP BEFORE FAJR EVERYDAY

Who ever in this world that invents Snooze button is the real demon. haha. I would love to wake up before fajr even when I am not working. In shaa Allah, it will help me spiritually.

HAVE AT LEAST 5 FIGURE WORTH OF SAVINGS

One of the hardest resolution evert. But I will try my best. Wish me luck.

HAVE MY BIG DAY HAPPEN

What big day? *Wink* *Wink* Amin

The point of this emotional post is not to beg for sympathy. I want this to be something you can think of and make you stronger. No one is perfect and doesn't mean if someone is always smiling, shopping, laughing, they are not sad. Sometimes we need to take a look back to everything that happen and make that as a feedback. Remember. There is no failure but feedback. Try to look at all of the problems with smile. Get up and try again. I am not the most positive person but at least I try to be. Because I am a very emotional person especially a week before the "time" comes. Haha.

Be a person who helps to raise each other. When you look at someone happiness, try to look at how they go through it to achieve that happiness. 

Everyday is a new day, new chances & new opportunity. Don't waste anytime. I'll make sure I will be enjoying my 30s with all the sacrifices that I have gone through now. It's now or never.

LET'S DO THIS!

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What is your new resolution this year?

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